I want to start by saying Thankyou, I miss you so much. I'm not sure if you can read this but I need to talk to you. I know where you are, how you are and where you are not.
I do not know why you had to go. It just wasn't fair, I am left with all this sorrow, sometimes too much to despair. It's hard not to touch you. It's hard not to see you. I just wish so much to hear your voice once more. "Life is too short, there is no time to leave important words behind".
I've had some really tough times, that I've cried out loud and in public. I just wish you were here. I wished we had more time together so you could see the confidence and stubborn women I grew up to be today.
I know someday I'll see you again. But for now, I'll hold you close and keep you safe until then keep on sending me signs. You left a mark on this earth not only just family and friends but to people all around you.
I may have been 1 going on to two when you passed, but I get told many stories from your younger years. My favorite has to be when you were a teenager, you were once drunk and on the stairs calling out to a mouse (even though you hate them) I can't help but laugh as I sit back and imagine this moment.
I have adults telling me, how a wonderful person you were when they knew you. It's crazy to think how small this world actually is, to have people come up to me and say "I knew your mum, and you look so much like her". Is one of my greatest experiences.
You are gone but surely never forgotten, I am grateful I got a chance to be your daughter. You and dad raised me to know the difference between the good and bad and the right and wrong.
You taught me how to stay strong because you were one of the strongest people I know, and you never let me or anyone forgets you love them and how much they meant to you and that you taught me the same.
I may have done things you are not proud of, but without you hear I'm still trying to figure out who it is I am exactly. You raised me not to be perfect but to be who I want to be. Thank you, mum,
P.s I hope you're having a blast with the rest of the family watching over us.
Love your daughter